Monday, October 25, 2010

Return of the Jedi... I mean me...

I think this is the longest I've gone without a post. I've been in a bit of a slump lately. Still not quite out of it but its not as bad as it was a few months ago. I had so much stuff going on. I took a tumble down the stairs, hurt my ankle and had a mild concussion. That wasn't fun. It's hard to do my job with a bum foot.

This is what I looked like after my fall. Well, not really... :-)

If I had the time to tell u all the things that were going on with me the past few months I would but it's all depressing so I'll just leave it at that. I will say that one of the main reasons I haven't been on is because my hair has been falling out and I've had chest pains. I went to the doctor and he said it's because of stress and that I need to take it easy for awhile. That's pretty much impossible considering I work at a job that consists of pretty much 5 people. Can't really get much time off so reducing my stress level has been, how u say, stressful? Oh well. As of 2 months ago the things I have needed to keep me out of being depressed have been stripped from me. I now have to work afternoons at work which means I can't see my counselor anymore on Thursdays. I barely see my friends because now I work all day Saturdays which means I can't go out Friday nights like I usually do which fucking sucks. The other thing that keeps me sane is having fun in the chatroom of my friends radio show, Black Sky Radio, but thats on in the afternoons which I am now working everyday. So I've been missing out on that a lot. Before I found Black Sky I was always working morning and then I would come home and nap. But for 6 months now Black Sky has kept me from napping all afternoon and just have fun chatting with friends.

Those 3 things kept me from being depressed and now I don't have have any of them. Not a good thing. Especially the counselor. Haven't seen him in months. He does it for free cuz he's a family friend but now I'm going to have to look into someone else unless I can get Thursdays and Saturdays off again like I've had for the past several years.

Basically my mood for the past 3 months...

Le sigh...

Now on to good news. In this time I haven't been blogging I've been catching up on movies and video games. Haruhi season 2 came out and I got that a few weeks ago! U can imagine my excitement when I got that one in the mail. lol I am also now the Moderator for the Kevin Pollak Chat Show Forums on the website which is pretty rad! As for video games I've played Just Cause 2, Star Ocean: International, Fallout: New Vegas, and tonight at midnight I will be picking up Star Wars: Force Unleashed 2!

ZOMG I can't fuggin wait! I've got 3 more hours. It's gonna be a great night.

These are the things I need to keep me happy and stop me from sinking back into depression. Sometimes it's the little things, ya know...?

Later all!


Bluedrakon said...

Dude, I hope things turn the corner for you soon. I have been kind of out of it myself, but been pushing it with the blog an commenting on my friends blog.

I have to say however, that I may be taking a hiatus as well. It seems I need time myself to recharge. I know the winter will get even move depressing and want to make sure I get out of my own funk.

good news is my shift will be going back to day job which means more time w/family. I hope this helps me out as well.

Just know we are out here if you need someone to talk with :)

Seantaku said...

Thanks dude, much appreciated.

I forgot to mention it in the blog but a lot of my friends are moving too. Things are changing. We're getting older and these things happen. It just sucks,

Good to hear u can spend more time with the family!

Nuke718 said...

Been too long since I was here, I am sorry to hear about the suckage going on for you Milkman. I can't listen/chat at BSR because of my new job situation either, so I kind of know what you mean.

You are a good guy, and I am sure I am not alone wishing you better days. I'll try to say Hi more often on Twitter since I cant talk to you at BSR.

Hang in there!

N }:-