Monday, October 25, 2010

Return of the Jedi... I mean me...

I think this is the longest I've gone without a post. I've been in a bit of a slump lately. Still not quite out of it but its not as bad as it was a few months ago. I had so much stuff going on. I took a tumble down the stairs, hurt my ankle and had a mild concussion. That wasn't fun. It's hard to do my job with a bum foot.

This is what I looked like after my fall. Well, not really... :-)

If I had the time to tell u all the things that were going on with me the past few months I would but it's all depressing so I'll just leave it at that. I will say that one of the main reasons I haven't been on is because my hair has been falling out and I've had chest pains. I went to the doctor and he said it's because of stress and that I need to take it easy for awhile. That's pretty much impossible considering I work at a job that consists of pretty much 5 people. Can't really get much time off so reducing my stress level has been, how u say, stressful? Oh well. As of 2 months ago the things I have needed to keep me out of being depressed have been stripped from me. I now have to work afternoons at work which means I can't see my counselor anymore on Thursdays. I barely see my friends because now I work all day Saturdays which means I can't go out Friday nights like I usually do which fucking sucks. The other thing that keeps me sane is having fun in the chatroom of my friends radio show, Black Sky Radio, but thats on in the afternoons which I am now working everyday. So I've been missing out on that a lot. Before I found Black Sky I was always working morning and then I would come home and nap. But for 6 months now Black Sky has kept me from napping all afternoon and just have fun chatting with friends.

Those 3 things kept me from being depressed and now I don't have have any of them. Not a good thing. Especially the counselor. Haven't seen him in months. He does it for free cuz he's a family friend but now I'm going to have to look into someone else unless I can get Thursdays and Saturdays off again like I've had for the past several years.

Basically my mood for the past 3 months...

Le sigh...

Now on to good news. In this time I haven't been blogging I've been catching up on movies and video games. Haruhi season 2 came out and I got that a few weeks ago! U can imagine my excitement when I got that one in the mail. lol I am also now the Moderator for the Kevin Pollak Chat Show Forums on the website which is pretty rad! As for video games I've played Just Cause 2, Star Ocean: International, Fallout: New Vegas, and tonight at midnight I will be picking up Star Wars: Force Unleashed 2!

ZOMG I can't fuggin wait! I've got 3 more hours. It's gonna be a great night.

These are the things I need to keep me happy and stop me from sinking back into depression. Sometimes it's the little things, ya know...?

Later all!